Stressed

I just don’t get it. I know I can make it to the next level but why do I have this feeling that I wanna give up and settle for being an L1 tech support. That doesn’t sound right, does it? We’ve been taking calls and preparing for our certifications, yeah I get that, but why do I have this feeling that it’s going to be OK, not because of motivation and positive stuff like that, but it’s OK that whatever happens, ewan ko ba, nawawalan na ko ng gana.

For the past two weeks, I have been pushing myself to my limits, changing my weaknesses into strengths and turning the tables around and see if I can make something out of it. Maybe I’m just so stressed right now that I don’t even want to push myself and be determined. What I am actually scared of is actually happening right now, Mawalan ako ng gana.

I need a lot of strength right now, I need to build myself up again. Tomorrow is a new day and maybe I’m just so tired now that I don’t even wanna think about it and I don’t wanna push myself up. But I have to do it right?

Why is this happening? So help me God, I need all the energy that I can get because right now, I’m running out of it and I don’t know how long I can sustain this little momentum that I have right now.

Music: Somewhere Down The Road – Nina

~ by jcmontales on April 16, 2008.