I’m going to add again another guy. This time. He is…

Jeremy – a promising ex and now, maybe he’s a boytoy.

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We got to talk. Jeremy and I decided to mend things way back and now that I’m kinda free from Mr. Big’s cluches. I’m free to talk to whoever I want.

Oh. Burger?

he texted again.

awww naman…

The weird thing though is that, I can’t delete his messages. I wonder why.

ok. starting now. I will call the three men involved as…

Burger = the bestfriend-ish guy whom I was dedicating my wrong send entry

Mr. Big = the evil bastard who broke my heart and wishes him dead.

Adan = the guy that im predicting to be a promising one. The name has a story based one the series. I just dont want the series to be applied to me.

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After the wrong send to Burger, I texted him all of the explanations that he has to hear.a total of 5 txts with 2 parts. SO imagine how long it was. That was last night. 12-ish

Just now. 7:12 on my PC clock. he texted.

Di ka nagpaparamdam ah…

WTF?

after 1 year and 6 months seeing this. Yeah. It’s true.

Because of a wrong send of a pseudo romance that im having,. What costs of it a friend who I’m getting my strength from.

Because of a wrong send, a friendship may lose. I dont want that but I guess I have to deal with it. Wrong send eh diba?

Because of a wrong send, I realized that maybe I have to give love a rest. A long rest. No romantic entanglements, No friendships that could lead to romance thing, No flirting and be flirted stuffs like that.

Because of a wrong send, things between us could get really blurry. I may lose two relationships, one was a promising one and one was just starting.

Because of a wrong send, I may lose a friend that has been with me in these toughest times, and I don’t want.

But

Because of a wrong send, maybe I’m done with them.

Trying to relive my blog again.  I’ve missed blogging so much na nakakalimutan ko minsan.

A lot has happened over the past months. Things I never imagined i would be, and do for that matter. Changes has been rough and lemme tell you, everything’s heaven until the day came when it all came crashing down to reality. A fantasy that I unconsicously turning into reality that has to stop. What’s worse is that, it was all a lie. Everything was a lie, not only did he lied to me but with our other friends as well. The meanest and most evil person I encountered. I never though I would encounter such cruel person as him.

He’s dead to me.

I’m free. Free from his clutches but the worst part of it, is moving on. A part of me still misses him though it was make believe. I just hope that those memories were real.

as days go by, things are really getting better. I’m loving it.

The Guild.

Friends.

Love life.

Work.

I have a new guild in RO (Ragnarok Online). What’s weird about it is that it was inspired by Gossip Girl and the ones who founded it were your typical “barako” male. I know right?! it sounds kinda funny but hey, even straight people watches the show.

I am actually blessed to have this guild. They are worth

keeping for at least for the time being. My first major siege will be on Monday and I’m kinda excited. The folks there actually will be there to help me out since I’m really new with sieges. hahaha! My first agit maybe will be on Geffen I think? hahaha.

Oh yeah, I’m a Chixilog. They’re really intrigued with my sexuality. hahaahha! go figure.

Current Song: Miley Cyrus – 7 Things

i’ve been working on 2 projects now, I’m kinda bored as I listen to some music and trying to squeeze out all my creative juices foer this to be finished. at least before the weekend starts.

I havent seen twilight, I know. I’m such a loser.

Also, I was thinking of disconnecting myself, or rather hybernate myself again from the people around me. I have alwasy been like this so it’s not new to me. well, I was only thinking of other aspects that I might missed.

anyway, I went back to Ragnarok Online and the hightest level that I’ve gone through is 92 which I intend to stuck it to that level until the next exp mod hahaha!

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hahaha, Supposed to be a dancer.

So I thought that buying a whole series of Charmed would made divert into this call cert thing. Costs me around 400 bucks and yet, Season 1 is not working. Good thing is that I was able to watch the whole series of ANTM Cycle 10 and Whitney as the ANTM, so-so. I rooted for Anya or Fatima instead of hers. Plus size models? Toccara Jones is still the best for me. Among ANTM winners? Jaslene, Saleisha and Caridee were my faves.

Oh, I passed btw, but wait… there’s more. Another is one coming, apparently, we have to pass two. I just dont know how to handle it anymore and I’m sick right now thanks to a co-worker. I’m just praying that everything will go to well this time around.

You know what’s funny, are the preparations that they are giving to us. Our name’s postion (e.a. JC, LEVEL 2) has been changed the position we are struggling to pass on. Our stations are already assigned to us and the necessary access that we need are already there. All we need is to do the job oficially which will start on Monday… IF we pass. So help us God, I think we reallyw orked hard for this.

My nerves must behave themselves tomorrow or else i’ll be damned.

It’s been a long time, yeah, I’ve been posting on multiply.com and I tend to forget about this one.

So I’m starting to renew this.

I’m stressed out, I need a break from everything. For the reason that I don’t wanna end up exploding and doing the inevitable of ignoring my work, friends and everything.

Or as my friend told me, maybe I need to do some soul searching, find myself and get in touch again with myself. Lot of things going on my mind now and I don’t wanna be eaten alive by it.